Some people thrive on change and uncertainty. Others are afraid of them. I fall somewhere in between. I love the idea of letting go and seeing what happens, but then the actual execution of it kind of leaves my stomach in knots. Warring knots at that. Some of them are like, “Woohoo! No idea what’s gonna happen! Let’s go get em!” While the others sort of tense up like a charlie horse, and whisper rather loudly, “Um…I don’t think so. We should just stay here in our dark hole where everything makes sense, and no one tries to come and mess things up. It’s not safe out there. I mean what kind of people or things lurk in the daylight? I shudder to think…”
And so with these warring knots, I’m left with nothing to do but sit here, paralyzed, not with fear but conflict. And sometimes, or most of the time, that’s even worse! I’ll spend hours talking it out with a friend. The pros and cons of this or that decision and wind up none the wiser for it. OR I make a decision and embrace it. For all of 2.5 seconds, then back to square one I go.
This is as much true for life decisions as it is writing ones. Is there a solution for this? No clue. I’d love to sit here and say, “Oh yeah, well just do this…” but I can’t. I’ve got nothin’ but a big fight going on in my stomach. Soooo if you have any thoughts on how to deal with uncertainty, drop it in the comments. I’d love to hear them. The more the merrier! As it is, I’ll just go and do something else while the knots fight it out themselves. One thing is for sure—I don’t have time to play their game. I’ve got some novels to write and cards to design.
Happy writing, y’all!